UWB Note: Here is Maya’s first piece in the series. And here is the first part of this article.
हो, हामी अलि शहरीया भेषभुषामा देखिने मान्छे, अझ बिशेष केटी मान्छे त राजनितीका कुराबाट अनभिज्ञ हुन्छौ भनेर सोचीन्छ । उसले पनि त्यहि सोचेर सम्झायो ।
स्कुलको पर्खालमा लेखिएका माओवादी नारा । सबै तस्बिर-माया यो ब्लगको अधिल्लो भाग यहाँ छ ।
माया
शनिवासरीय ब्लग
पहिला जाँदा हाँसेर बोलेका गाउँलेहरू यसपाला अलि शसंकित भएर कुरा गर्थे । मलाई एक्लै देखेर होला । पहिलो चोटी त घुम्न आइ दोस्रो चोटी के गर्न आइ भनेर पनि होला । मेरो पेट खराब भयो त्यसैले म गएको भोलीपल्ट सुतेर बसीराखे । पर्सीपल्ट पनि म सुतिराखेको थिए, धनले कानमा नै आएर भनी, ‘नाना (दिदी) तपाइलाई त्यो गौरव भन्ने माओवादीले बोलाएको छ । स्कुलको डाँडामा जानुस् रे !’
म उठे र मुख धोएर गए । उसलाई मैले परैबाट देखे । उसले कम्ब्याक्ट ड्रेस लगाएको थिएन तर बन्दुक भने बोकीरहेको थियो । स्कुल विदा भै सकेकोले सुनसान थियो । मान्छे ओहोरदोहोर हुने नै बाटो हो त्यो तर फाट्टफुट्टमात्र ।
‘नमस्ते !’ मैले हात जोडे । चिठी पठाएपछिको भेट भएकाले अलि अप्ठेरो लागिरहेको थियो ।
‘हामी नमस्ते गर्दैनौ, हामी त हात मिलाउँछौ ,’ उसले हात दियो ।
‘तर म नमस्ते नै गर्छु,’ मैले हात जोडी नै रहे ।
‘ठिक छ, म फर्काउँदिन ।’
‘हुन्छ ।’
‘सञ्चै ?’
‘सञ्चै !’
‘तर हिजो राती त धनसंग टाउको दख्यो भनेको सुनेको थिए ।’
‘चियो गर्दैथ्यौ तिमी ?’ मैले पनि तिमी नै भने ।
‘हैन त्यहि बाटो भएर जादै थिए, सुनेको ।’
म बसेको घर सडकसंग जोडिएको छ ।
‘त्यो मेरो बोली नहुन पनि सक्थ्यो नी ! कसरी चिन्यौ ?’
‘थाहा पाए ।’
‘लौ लौ !!’
हामी बाटोतिर ढाड फर्काएर बसेका थियौ । तल बाख्रा चराइरहेका केटाकेटी देखिन्थे । मैले उसको आँखामा हेरीन । झट्ट सुरूमा हेर्दा उसको अनुहार सफा भने देखिएको थियो ।
‘तिमी मलाई सहयोग गर्र्छौ ?’ मैले भने ।
‘कस्तो सहयोग ?’
‘म तिम्रा अरू साथीसंग पनि कुरा गर्न चाहन्छु ।’
‘यो मबाट हुदैन ।’
‘किन ?’
‘उनीहरू नयाँ मान्छेसंग कुरा गर्दैनन् ।’
‘तर तिमी त मलाई चिन्छौ नि हैन ?’
‘उनीहरू नयाँ मान्छेसंग कुरा गर्दैनन् ।’
‘तर तिमी त मलाई चिन्छौ नि हैन ?’
‘मैले चिनेर हुदैन । तिमीसंग कुरा गर्नुलाई साथीहरूले अर्थपुर्ण तरीकाले हेरेका छन् ।’
‘अर्थपुर्ण ? कस्तो अर्थपुर्ण ?’ मैले कुरा बुझिन ।
‘तिनीहरू तिमी मेरो प्रेमिका हौ भन्ठान्छन् ।’
‘के ?’ जील्लीएर मेरो आँखाको आयतन बढ्यो । ‘हा हा हा …….. हो त ?’ मैले हाँसेर आफुलाई सामान्य बनाए ।
‘हैन !’ उसले मतिर हेरेरै भन्यो ।
‘त्यसो भए यस्तो कुरा छाड्देउ । यस्तो सानो कुरामा अल्झिनेले पनि क्रान्ति गर्छु भनेर हुन्छ ?’
‘तिमी तगडा कुरा गर्र्छौ ।’
‘तर तिमी त मलाइ शहरी बेकम्मा केटी भन्ठान्छौ होइन र ?’ बल्ल मैले मौका पाएको थिए ।
‘ठान्थे तर अब त्यस्तो सोच्दिन ।’
‘किन त्यस्तो सोच्यौ त ?’
‘तिम्रो झोलामा कुरकुरे थियो ।’
‘के भयो त कुरकुरे खाने सबै बेकम्मा हुन्छन् त ?’
‘हुन्न रहेछन् । हामीले बिहानदेखि केही खाएका थिएनौ त्यसैले अलि रीस उठिरहेको थियो ।’
म एकछिन चुप लागे । म कुरा गर्दा उतिर हेर्दिन थे र ऊ पनि सायद हेर्दैनथ्यो ।
‘तिमी राम्रो लेख्नेरहेछ्यौ ।’
‘कसरी ?’
‘मलाई त्यसले प्रभाव पार्यो । अनि मैले तिमीलाई त्यस्तो भन्नु हुदैन थियो जस्तो लाग्यो ।’
एकछिन फेरी कोही बोलेन ।
‘के तिमी मलाई साच्चै सहयोग गर्दैनौ ?’
‘तिमीले सोचेजस्तो सजिलो छैन नी ! यी साथीहरूले कत्रो त्याग गरेका छन् । भिडन्तबाट बचेर आएका छन् ।’
‘हो ? यो त झन् रोमाञ्चकारी हुन्छ ।’ मैले आँखा चम्काएर बोले ।
‘यो त शहरकी बेकम्मा केटी बोले झै भयो । युद्ध भयानक कुरा हो । आफ्नै साथीको लास कुल्चेर अगाडी बढ्नु के सानो कुरा हो ?’
आफ्नो कुराको अर्थ अलि अर्कै लागेपछि म गम्भिर भए र भने, ‘डर लाग्छ युद्धदेखि ? लाग्नेले किन लड्नु ?’
‘लाग्दैन तर तिमीहरू कति हल्कासंग लिन्छौ ।’
‘हल्कासंग ? हामी त झन डराउँछौ । हामीसंग कति धेरै प्रश्न हुन्छन् ।’
एकपटक घर जाँदा चितवनको जुगेडीमा भएको भिडन्तको पनि प्रत्यक्षदर्शी बनियो । गोली चलेको सुनियो । परीवारमा फुपाज्यू सेनामा हुनुहुन्छ । सेनाकाबारेमा यसैपनि धेरै कुरा थाहा भइराखेको हुन्थ्यो ।
‘कस्तो प्रश्न सोध्न मन लाग्छ ?’ उसले जान्न चाह्यो ।
‘के तिमी जवाफ दिन्छौ ?’
‘सोध न !’
‘जवाफ दिन्छौ ?’
‘दिन्न । तिमी कस्तो प्रश्न गर्न चाहन्छौ, त्यो मात्र जान्न चाहन्छु ।’
‘ए बाठो कुरा ! म सोध्दिन ।’
ऊ चुप लाग्यो ।
मैले उसकै बारेमा त सोधेको थिइन । मलाई उसको बारेमा जान्नु पनि केही थिएन ।
‘झोलामा के छ ?’ कुरा अन्तै मोडियो । फोटो खिच्ने देला कि, र केही लेख्नुपर्ला कि भनेर मैले झोला बोकीवरी गएको थिए । उसले झोला हेर्यो । झोलामा एउटा पर्स थियो ।
‘यो पर्स कसको लागि ?’, उसले पर्स हातमा लिदै सोध्यो । पर्स खाली थियो ।
‘कसैको लागि हैन’
‘मलाई चाहिएको छ ।’
मैले लिए हुन्छको संकेत गर्दै टाउको हल्लाए । उसले आफ्नो परानो पर्सका सबै सामान खाली गर्यो र मैले दिएको पर्समा राख्यो ।
हामीले थुप्रै कुरा गर्यौ । कतिकुराहरू माओवादीका बारेमा, कति मेरो बारेमा तर बिचमा कनै पनि बेला पनि मैले उसको घर कहाँ, उसका परिवारको बारेमा, केही पनि सोधिन । मलाई ऊ कसरी माओवादी भयो भन्ने चाँहि जान्ने इच्क्षा थियो । प्रायसो माओवादी पार्टीमा आफ्नो घरबार केही नभनी हिड्नेसंग केही बिशेष कारण हन्छ । अझ युवाहरू के कारणले प्रभावित हन्छन् भन्ने त मलाई जान्ने इच्छा थियो तर सोधिहाल्न म मौकाको पर्खाइमा थिए ।
हामीले केही ठट्टा पनि गर्यौ तर हामी दुबै अनुशासित थियौ । दुबै ठट्टा गर्न अभ्यस्त नभएका मान्छेहरू थियौ । ऊ त त्यसै त्यसै रिसाएको झै लाग्थ्यो ।
‘तिमीले के पढिर’को रे ?’, उसले सोध्यो ।
‘आर्टस्’
‘कुन कुन विषय ?’
‘सोसीयोलोजी र पपुलेसन ।’
‘अंग्रजी किन नपढेको ?’
‘त्यसै, तिमीले कति पढेका छौ ?’
‘मैले पनि तिमी पढेकै कलेज पढेको । बी.ए. पास गरेको छ ।’
‘तिमीले अंग्रजी पढको हो ?’
‘हो । जे पढे पनि उही हो ।’
‘के गर्र्छौ यो पढेर ?’
‘जागिर गर्छु ।’
मेरो उत्तर सोझो थियो । ऊ हाँस्यो, मलाई पनि थाहा छ जागिर पाउन मैले जवाफ दिए जस्तो सोझो छैन तर पनि मैले केही जवाफ दिनका लागि त्यसो भनेको थिए ।
‘तिमीलाई थाहा छ, काठमाडौंमा मेरो घरमा डेरा बस्ने प्रायसो केटाहरू गाउँबाट पढ्न र पढेपछि जागिर खान आउँथे । तर तिनीहरूमध्ये थोरै मात्रले जागिर पाउँथे । बाँकी सब गाउँमा गएर झगडालु पति र गैर्ह जिम्मेवार बाउ बन्थे । यस्तो वास्तविकता तिमीले बुझ्या छौ ?’
मैले कनै प्रतिक्रिया दिइन । मैले उतिर एककोहोरो हेरीरहे ।
‘हेर मेरो घर काठमाडौंमा छ, बाउआमाको एक्लो छोरा, जे पनि पुर्याउँछन् तर के मलाई मात्र पुगेर हन्छ ? मैले मात्र खाएर हन्छ ? कहिले हामी सबै मान्छेको लागि सुरक्षित जीवन बनाउने ? तिमी यीनै नेता र राजाले शुसाशन गर्छन भन्ने ठान्छौ ? मेरो लागि मेरो जीवन भन्दा महत्वपुर्ण कुरा मेरो राष्ट्र हो । हामीले परिवर्तनका लागि प्रतिबद्ध हनपर्छ ।’
उसले आफ्ना बारेमा भन्दा म चप लागिरहे । मैले उसंग करा गरेपछि जान्न चाहेको सबैभन्दा महत्वपुर्ण कुरा थियो यो ।
‘तिमी भन्छौ, मान्छे मार्र्छौ तिमीहरू, तर हामी क्रान्ति गरीरहेका छौ, आफ्नो व्यक्तिगत स्वार्थका लागि हैन सम्पुर्ण राष्ट्रका लागि । क्रान्तिमा यस्तो हुन्छ । हामी पनि त मर्र्छौ । तिमीहरूलाई हामी मरेको कराले कुनै महत्व राख्दैन है ? हामीले पनि परिवार गुमाएका हुन्छौ । हामीमा पनि भावना हन्छ तर हामीले सबैकरा राष्ट्रका लागि त्याग गरेका हन्छौ । परिवर्तनको लागि हामी प्रतिबद्ध छौ । सबैले खान पाउनुपर्छ, लाउन पाउनुपर्छ, सबैको जीवन राम्रो हनपर्छ । तिमी पनि यस्तो भन्छौ नि हैन र ?’
मैले सहमतिको मन्टो हल्लाए ।
‘हो तर यो सबको लागि हाम्रो सीस्टम राम्रो हनपर्छ । सीस्टम परिवर्तन यत्तिकै हदैन । रत्नपार्कमा जीन्दावाद वा मर्दावाद भनेर हदैन बझ्यौ ?’
उसले मलाई केटाकेटीलाई झै सम्झायो । उसको घरमा डेरा गरी बसेका दोलखाका दइ केटाले उसको मनमा यी कराहरू हालेका रहेछन् । ‘दइ वर्षभयो म घर नगएको’, उसले भन्यो ।
अरू पनि कुराहरूले उसले मलाई बुझाउन खोज्यो । मैले सब बुझेको थिए । ऊ माओवाद बुझाइको शरूवात थिएन न त मैले भेटेको पहिलो माओवादी नै थियो ।
हो, हामी अलि शहरीया भेषभुषामा देखिने मान्छे, अझ बिशेष केटी मान्छे त राजनितीका कुराबाट अनभिज्ञ हुन्छौ भनेर सोचीन्छ । उसले पनि त्यहि सोचेर सम्झायो ।
>>>मायालाई mayablog@gmail.com मा सम्पर्क गर्न सकिन्छ । मायाको अघिल्लो ब्लग यहाँ छ । यो लेखको अधिल्लो भाग यहाँ छ ।
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20 responses to “मेरा मनका माओवादी-२”
sounds like hindi movie…. two guys falling in love…..coooool
KK
You seem like you have never watched english movie, English mobie’s story r also written in such kind of theme. You have sterotyped english movie out of the world, modern, scientific, action, dog type love only. Many english movie are also based on such kind of cat love theme.
Anyways Maya you write very well, and your story is not a common one it is unique.
no way, i feel like some reading “palpasa cafe” in a fm radio when i was reading this.
I think UWB is running short of useful topics for the society! we can find enough love stories in literature!
ll,
Of course i do watch eng movies but you know the scene in hindi movies are totally rediucluos when they say “Mai tumse Pyar karne lagha hu..” or “hum tumhe chahte hai” ….etc… I am sure the dailouge between the guys must have been in that way rather than in english movie styles…… 🙂
blogger ! your story would be authenticated if you have the inner instinct to put up both of ur photos…….
Pyar kiya to ………darna kya…
plus ,,,,,,,now maobadis are not terrorists or whatsoever…….. so why is this chuppa rustam kahani ???
please answer
regards
chandra
maaya,
in next three months,more such story will come..,
maaya, put the conversation with the old villagers, childs,and locals….
those lines were the series of events,now put ur analysis..
Hey Guys,
I am wondering what image should gorkhapatra represent?
If it’s a mouth peace of the government, then why is there the news of the king visiting Dakchinkali as the main news?
Further, Why is there a quote of the king when people in Nepal are destroying his “mahabadi” as being fake and full of conspiracies?
What message does Gorkhapatra give to the people, when it is supposed to represent the present government who is passing bills for establishing REPUBLIC Nepal??……..
Hey is there something going wrong with what is said and what’s being done??…….. Are the people’s demand being overshadowed?
Let’s speak out against it
Maya,
I appreciate your approach very much.
very nice style….It touched me more as it is written from a women’s eye.
……
When I hear some men shouting “maoists are terrorists. kill them, crush them completely”
I question myself-Why some guys cling to imported logic and leave their compassion.
I am also equally skeptic of maoists top leaders. Prachandapath ,and other barbaric autocratic activities of maoists leave me suspicious.
But maoists are a group of different kind of people. Some are blinded fundamentalists;some are pure criminals ;But most are driven by the dream for better nepal.
They are not so wild that they cannot be tamed.
If there is garauntee of better nepal, so many are willing to give away their arms.
If the demand of CA is fulfilled , leaving some few most will happily come to multi-party democracy.
Please leave your imported notion of democracy and US defined terrorism and try to know your own fellow people, maoist siblings and lets work together for agreement.
“But most are driven by the dream for better nepal…..If the demand of CA is fulfilled , leaving some few most will happily come to multi-party democracy…”
Taaya,
You seriously need to see something more. You are right about the “dream” but understand that this is just a dream. Prosperity does not descend with the election of CA or as soon as Gyane is kicked out. The so-called leaders of mao are the terrorists for real. Try visiting a rural household, make sure they know who you are, otherwise they fear to speak against the maoists, and ask them how many times have maoists scared them to death. Then you will realize who these freaks are. Yes, there is inequality everywhere and equality is not the best thing in the world for various reasons.
However, we need to compromise as we cannot tolerate instability anymore. However, these maoists seriously deserve jail sentence at the least.
Look at our blog if you want to see more on these things and other discussions..
So, you have banned me, UWB? Wow…Congratulations on your democratic principles…But, yes, we are continuing our campaign for an unmoderated site..and I am happy with the progress so far..
UWB Clarification:
To be honest with you, we really don’t have time to think about banning you. We have more important things to do. We are closely monitoring the campaign that you are launching against this site. We happily defend your right to do so. We are also aware about the difficulties faced by some of the genuine commentators because of our compulsion to moderate some comments. We can’t let this site hijacked by some people who try to fill its comments sections with pornographic contents and links. We also can’t let this site filled with automatically generated spam comments that we receive at least 25 hundreds a day.
So, while we try to maintain control over those evil commentators (who just post personal attack in mean language against public personalities that you can’t utter in your family) and pornographic links, genuine commentators like you have through moderation. We sincerely regret that. If you have any options, please suggest us and, we are happy to implement them here. We thought that you were aware about those problems since you run your own blog site. But you seem to be ignorant or pretend to be like that.
And about the content of the genuine comments. We are open to all kinds of criticism and praise to anyone (including king Gyanendra and Prime Minister Girija Prasad Koirala) in a language that could be used in a family. But we can’t tolerate any comments that undermine our national sovereignty and national integrity of Nepal. That is against the constitution of this country and we abide by the law of the land.
(By the way, good luck with you new site. But if you really want to discuss in an already established site, we suggest you to visit sajha.com).
Thanks UWB..
At least now you have agreed that there is a problem and that it is the readers who count the most. It took you so long to come to the ground?While the reasons for moderations may be genuine, you should create a filter so that such activities can be avoided. By this I mean, disclose the rules for writing comments and then filter out the genuine commentators who come out here regularly. In addition, make filters for such abusive words.
There are a lot of sensible commentators out here like Kirat,Pundit, Sherlock,Taaya and so forth, who have to go through the same phase of moderation like those insensible readers.
So, unless you rightly create such filters, the impulse of lively discussion goes to the ground. You are so much into an argument and you write a long response but by the time when your comment gets published, it goes unnoticed as there are several others published after that.
Moreover, you should decentralize the moderation power. Don’t think that you will lose power because of it. Get people around the globe who are sensible and who can moderate comments just as they come. This can be useful for the people who are new to the site. However, you must be aware that most of the people who write comments here are the same old folks.
I think this also goes through the same moderation…again congratulations….and yes..we will continue with the new site as the alternate forum until and unless there are sufficient changes here to allow unmoderated comments at least for the regular visitors…
UWB,
“We are open to all kinds of criticism and praise to anyone (including king Gyanendra and Prime Minister Girija Prasad Koirala) in a language that could be used in a family. But we can’t tolerate any comments that undermine our national sovereignty and national integrity of Nepal.”
I believe in you that you are a real naive and posting bias comments. Have you ever thought before good writing??
hari sharma,
Please establish new blogsite for all of us to freely discuss. We better leave this mentalist blog.
My questions and comments to the sympathizers of the Maoist movement:
1. Karl Marx was a historian and a philosoper who was touched by the wretched living conditions of the poor factory workers in Europe. Therefore, he envisoned a society without the system of private property. Marx thought that the system of private property was the major source of evil, and human civilization will be better off without it. I have heard that Karl Marx remains as the major source of inspiration and legitimacy to the Nepalese Maoists. I would like to know if the Nepalese Maoists would also eradicate the system of private property from the country if they came to power. If not, who will be responsible for the death of more than 13000 individuals vis-a-vis the immense social and economic costs paid by this poor nation?
2. Coming back to Marxism: Karl Marx conceived this theory some 150 years ago on the basis of his study of European societies. After this theory was published, more than 5 million people all over the world have lost their lives for or against it. In spite of this, the socialist society remains an unfulfilled dream. However, those who run revolutions in the name of Marxism never try to understand that this theory is not obsolete and cannot address today’s problems. The Nepalese Maoists who adhere to this ghost theory continue to claim that they are the 21st century communists! How can a person who holds 150 years old ideology be called the leader of the new generation?
3. ‘Chairman’ Mao, who is another idol for the Nepalese Maoists, killed half a million innocent civillians during his infamous cultural revolution. Most of those killed were bureaucrats, artists, and academics. Mao died in 1976 without a word of apology for his vicious crimes. The infamous cultural revolution was banned and criticized by another communist leader Deng Xiaoping after Mao’s death. How can a revoultion run under the name of a monster criminal can give social justice to the people of Nepal?
4. Social inequality is, of course, a shame on the face of the whole human civilization. This avoidable evil continues to deprives billions of people in this universe from their right to justice and resources. However, social inequality can be reduced if not eliminated through human efforts. But to argue that the Marxist and Maoist visons are the only ways of reducing social inequality is sheer absurd. What about other peaceful ways, for instance, “Make Poverty History” movement which is being run by Nelson Mandela and famous Western artists? The Maoists are as guilty as those who protect and benefit from the social inequality of Nepal.
I donot support the path of violence chosen by Maoists .
If Prachanda and Baburam are proved as the autocratic warlord just manipulating the poor sentiments and recklessly doing some ‘rajnaitik prayog’ , then I support that they should be punished and penalised.
My concern and compassion are for those thousands of innocent and naive followers who follow maoism not for the sake of any ism but for the search of a better Nepal.
If we care to see them, most are the young teenagers who being deprived of adequete knowledge and vision are blinded by the maoist dream.
They are so naive that they cannot even realise that the dream of communist utopia that maoists are talking about is an impossible one.
they have chosen maoism because they don’t know any other ‘ism’
they chose violence because they don’t know the power of non-violence.
They are not fundamentalists (they donot even clearly know what prachandapath is abt) but innocence is their problem.
If a garauntee comes from SPA or any other political parties for better new Nepal , they will surely leave their weapons.
I am sure more than anybody, maoists themselves must be in hurry of agreement.
So I urge SPA and all other responsible parties to create suitable environment with promise of new Nepal.
Everybody should ponder why the maoists power and influence is increasing day by day.
“aakhir kohi kina himshrak huncha?”
The only solution for maoists problem is
not military(failed step)
not alienation(which so called democrats want to do)
but an environment and a promise.
It is better and easier to deviate their army from violence than kill them with violence.
I am happy with our current government’s approach.
They are doing well.
But here I find so many bloggers and esp. foreign so-called experts that need to rethink.
UWB: If u publish stories , I have one to contribute on this topic.
maya ji,
i read all of this part but not the first part. i thought it was the first part. so i started from the begining of this part. but at the last part of this part, haha, i found that it was the second part. soooooooo sad. i think u understand me. i will not read the first part.
I don’t wanna comment in content as it is done much by others.
U have nice writing style. But give serious concern to Hrashwa and Deergha too.
I hope the editors will also consider from the next time!
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