Are you a truth seeker or merely schizophrenic? Here is some talks for those who have time and patience.
Saturday Blog
By Leelaraj Khatiwada
The present world is full of barriers to a truth seeker, the world runs on enormous paradoxes and controversies; this elemental jargon makes a truth seeker confused. Remember it may disturb you to realize your destiny. Who have time? I ask all of you, who have time to see the truth within, unless you are free from the bug of money. Just cross the ambush of money, that is needed to achieve a high goal in spirituality. Yes, renunciation!
Nevertheless, it is not an easy task to find the truth. It is not just like drinking one peg of purple wine. And it definitely is not like gazing the stars, moon or etc. It is a journey to the unknown. An anonymous path to the Almighty. Who said, the almighty God is in the Pashupatinatha? He is in the living men.
Of course the truth seeking business is not easy enough. But it is easy too, if you are the type of believing miracles. Not like Sai Baba but beyond this.
You may find caterpillars in the path. Pupa on the edge of the path. Butterfly in the milestone and nectar in the goal. Yes, the final goal is full of heaven.” Heaven is on the tear!” Alas, you will cry after completing the long journey of truth seeking. For me it was 7 long years to conclude the heprazigotaq journey. Uf, the heprazigotaqness of my exile just within my mind. Really saying it is a super adventure.
Many truth seekers found paranoia, bipolar, schizophrenia, multiple personality mental activities and so on in the spiritual path. It is not necessary that all truth seekers encounter these complexities in the spiritual highway of life. Rather the moment you are diagnosed, you find a mess around you. A thick fug, smock of hell and full of horror just within you. But it is true that many people healed them from different mental errors they encountered in the spiritual highway.
Sometimes it is in a hopeless form for them who face these kinds of problems without being aware of any spiritual dimension. And the hope is only for them, right here, who at least aware of the consciousness of the universe being tuned with their consciousness so vividly and of course with a force of spiritual enigma. It is important to write here that truth seeker often found not only these types of experiences, in fact it is all the time unpredictable; any experience may turn up which makes you a person whose diagnosis and treatment might be difficult the moment he realizes them.
Fortunately, schizophrenia can transform you, you know why? The events of schizophrenia are directly or indirectly related to the Metaphysics. And sometimes it manifests on the boarder of Mysticism, it is often easy enough to realize the destiny in a post schizophrenic manifestation of the existential errors of the human mind, the paradoxical phenomenon of schizophrenia is a giant reflection of the evolving human existence. If you are aware enough, the first priority of a man here over the planet is seeking truth. The truth of his own body, mind and soul, and a link of it to the consciousness of the universe.
A schizophrenic must be aware of his own unedited thoughts being flooded always against his will. He or she most realizes these are the connection with the universal consciousness, all the time the connection is not ill, the moment you realize all these mental phenomenon are divine the transformation occurs. Exactly this is what you were seeking, in the dimension f truth.
I was encountered paranoia in the age of 24 and my status quo has been evolving since then, although I already started the journey of meditation 2 years earlier, which always saved me from a nightmare of insanity. The paranoia increased as bipolar, schizophrenia, personality disorder and so on. I am 32 these days, and still having many insights, I at least can’t call them an ill symptoms or something like that. All symptoms transformed into insights, merely insights. What more a truth seeker desires more than insights 24 hours in a day? Wherever I am I am with my breathe, that brings enough insights to make you content with the reality of the nature as it is. Who am I to change the nature?
The nature of my own consciousness and its entire connection with the universe. I need no change, what I need is merely an acceptance with a spinal crux of universal wisdom. And the transformation occurs in a noble way. Your all efforts to be a Noble person awaken- really you wanted to be a noblest one, didn’t you? And suddenly you hear a soundless sound of humming within you as the manifestation of thoughts, visions, cognition, sense and many others.
Oh, the life is not ugly. The world is not merely a place of mess. Now you see the rising sun just within you. You begun to smell the holy fragrance of blooming flowers in your heart. You really start testing the nectar of life.
Leela is a former journalist and now, guess yourself… He told UWB that he is in an advocacy to establish a Spiritual Emergence Network in Nepal. His plan “is to help affected people to get metamorphosed the psychologically illness into spiritual awakening only those who seeks truth that means this is a psycho-spiritual healing.”
There you go. Leela could be reached at: zedlilaraz@yahoo.co.in
5 Comments »
Lilaji, does your method/transformation work up to the extent I believe in it, or simply happen even if I don’t believe in it. What I think is if your method works only if I believe in it, then it can be called self-deception/self-hypnotization, nothing spiritual about it.
You have not defined the terms/jargons, especially you need to define paranoia and schizophrenia. Again, if spiritual experience is related to the excessive secretion of serotonin and dapamine (which I have heard causes paranoia and schizophrenia), there is again nothing spiritual about it. No doubt, they are the sources of ecstasy as well. But ,it seems that it gives you one of the way to view the world differently even if it, as you say, gives you a different kind of experience. But, this different world you experience can not be termed as the world of truth. It is like arguing that you are real while you are awoke or in dream. Cannot it be a mere projection of your own mind, more illusory?
But, if your method is for psycho-therapy and intended to lift people out of their mental tortures, I will always be with you, for my own pleasure.
Comment by Vishnu — 5/14/2005 @ 6:55 pm
Thats true, Leela. I too believe in the transformation of the soul. Metamorphosis of the body. and dissolving consciousness. Keep it up.
Comment by Pentinan Sironox — 5/14/2005 @ 8:04 pm
Lovely article. Dinesh, you should place more or of these pieces. Not just excessive politics.
Comment by Samjhana — 5/15/2005 @ 10:05 pm
This article is waihat.Leelaji plz.try to do good work.
Comment by sunil manandhar — 5/18/2005 @ 6:51 pm
sunil ji, wahiat articles have their own test. I am happy that you have tested it. By the way you did not write, how was the test?
Being serious, this artical is only a testimoney of a schizoid person who is not taking any medicines. Of course this article is not to win any compition. Keep it up, sorry for a bitter test.
Comment by Leela — 5/22/2005 @ 1:45 pm
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